Vent and Apologies

Oh no another vent journal..oh boy you just want attention..jeez look at them..attention whore..

Probably what youre thinking while reading this..its ok. Think what you want I can't control that.



Lets just say Im not at my best. Im not happy. I can draw some of the cutest and happiest art but its all fake happiness. It isnt real ok? Recently I've been misunderstood, hurt. I know I'm hurting a lot of you and while I know I can't point you out because I've hurt a lot of people, I just want to say an apology.

To the many people I've manipulated since I've been on dA i just want to say sorry. I know i cant contain my jealousies as well as others..it doesnt come out as anger rather its sadness and desiring to want it. So i bend the minds..find ways to make you all feel bad...if i have succeeded then I am truly sorry for doing this to you all. This was something I did not want to do. I do not expect forgiveness.

I know im an overly sensitive crybaby and I'm sorry. Im trying to change really I am. I can't even forgive myself for what I've done. I've pressured people, manipulated people..i wish i could fix my past mistakes as I did not want to hurt anyone.

Now..i need to get to some specific people..

Chumoji
You're an awesome friend to me, gifting me my first griffian. Im sorry i hurt you so many times. You were probably one of the only ones I can vent to daily. I just wish i didnt depend on you and leech off of you for happiness. For that i am sorry Peach.

SacredUndead
If you can even see this, i really want to say sorry. I persisted when i shouldn't have, forcing you into an uncomfortable position due to my selfish desires. I definitely do not desire forgiveness..I just want you to know im really sorry.
(tagging @Blossomfur-7 if you want to show them this. If not then its ok im not forcing you)

Kandy-Cube
You're really one of the many people I inspire off of when i do my own designs, but the way I've been treating you is unfair. Im sorry for my rudeness and my attitude towards you. Once again i do not ask for forgiveness but notice of your time to read this.

I know there are more as I can not remember..please remind me of the time i hurt you and I'll give you a proper apology. I am sorry and I hope you take the time to read this. Have a nice day.